It’s easier to forget about the heartaches when people don’t know about them.
But in the end, all that matters is that you still remember.
When all goes quiet, when the sky gets dark, I still remember, I can’t forget.
“Rejoice in the Lord always”- They are distant words when all you can do is think about the problems. Rejoice in the Lord always.
I’m struggling. I don’t know how to be truly joyful right now.
I hope I can learn to be thankful again.
wow, i’m so emo right now.
April 6, 2008 at 6:40 pm
I don’t think there’s anything wrong with getting in touch with your emotions, and not being affraid to express them. I have learned from past sorrows in my life that the worst thing I could possibly do is to bottle my emotions. So go ahead express how you’re feeling, in a poem, a letter, a picture, a song, a dance, whatever avenue you’re most comfortable with. When times are rough I find it helps to think about the good times, or the good time to come.
April 8, 2008 at 9:54 pm
mybooooo i miss you!
big huggggg!!!
April 9, 2008 at 11:39 am
FOUND YOUR BLOG ROFL
April 10, 2008 at 12:57 am
That is a pretty emo post.
*serious response time*
I’ve had some heartache too recently, more of the ‘loved and lost without ever expressing any sort of outer appearance of feeling’ then anything real (I moved awhile ago into ‘passive mode’ when it came to dating). It sucks, and I sympathize. You definitely have more guts then me blogging about it openly, but I guess you didn’t realize the next day we’d find your blog.. I hope it doesn’t dissuade you from posting openly as despite my behavior in class I’d never really make fun of anyone for something they say on their blog, its another one of those ‘off limits’ personal areas. Though you know I’m not great at avoiding those pitfalls either. :p
I’ve posted emo aplenty, typically either as a ‘private’ entry or lost in time on old blogs I never told anyone about, and have journals at home that last about 2 pages worth of angst before I abandon them. I tend to go more annoyingly analytical, but it does help to type it out sometimes, as it feels like whenever I angst openly to people I either get an uncomfortable ‘there, there’ or, if its online, either a ‘your mom’ joke or a
expression. I can understand it, no one likes to be brought own by angst (especially somewhat continual angst that I tend to spew on occasion), but I guess I kind of chalk the digital age up to destroying yet another part of the human experience: the ability to comfort each other without it seeming hollow an cheap.
I’m sure I could make more of an effort if I really needed comforting and moan in person or on the phone, and I’d probably find a shoulder to emo’ upon… but I think years of digital interaction have changed me as well.. I was an emotional child, but nowadays I’m much more inside. I don’t know maybe that’s just maturity.
Anyway, that was quite a ramble, good luck on feeling better.
-cranberry c
April 10, 2008 at 9:11 pm
thanks david for the post. haha yeah yesterday i thought you were going to read out my emo blog out to the class, but super glad you didn’t.
It has been helpful for me to write it out, even if i deleted it later. As i was writing some of these, it helped me clear out some thoughts. I also found myself really sad re-reading it so deleting it helped some bit
But I do think the best thing in healing is sharing the burden. I guess that’s the hard part for us- I don’t know why it is, maybe I feel like it’s not worth sharing or like you said, it’ll just be a bit awkward with the ‘there there’ kinda response. But I think people still wanna help just like what you did i guess 
so i’m pretty grateful for those who’ve responded.
haha but in the end, i still don’t think that completely solves it… maybe time will, and a bit of prayer for me. I’m struggling with spirituality right now. It seems more painful to reject God right now but i’m doing it anyway- and its kinda killing me inside. weird huh
hope your heartache is healing cranberry c.
April 18, 2008 at 2:42 pm
New post!